Want.

So it’s 3 am and I just got in from drinking with the co-workers.

Tonight I pretended to be the “protective” girlfriend of this girl Michelle, when a guy came and tried to hit on her.  Michelle is practically engaged to this guy, Joey, who didn’t want her to go out in the first place, but we practically forced her to.

Anyway, so my behavior with Michelle apparently pissed off one of the girls we were hanging out with because I guess she (I won’t name her because it’s too easy to look her up on my facebook) has a “girl crush” on me and has been wanting to hook up with me for a while - which isn’t going to happen.

She ended up getting so drunk, she kept telling me, “You’re sexy as hell.” and I just laughed.

She was like, “What is this ring you’re wearing, anyway?” and she attempted to pull it off my finger and throw it away before I threatened to punch her in the face.

She is a fun girl, who I don’t want drama with, but I think the rumor has already gotten around that she and I have a “thing” when, really, we don’t, at ALL.  So one of the bartenders told me she was hooking up with 2 other people, and I was like …  “So?”  Like, why would I care…  I guess they were trying to get a reaction out of me, but honestly, I can’t wait for my girlfriend to get back.

Everyone knows I am so in love with Angela, but they also know that she is on the other side of the world, so they think they can tempt me with stupid games and it makes me want to be anti-social, except that’s not going to happen because if I sat at home all day I would just get depressed, so instead I go out and have fun, despite the pending drama that may exist, except I just don’t get involved.

Of course I can’t tell Angela about any of this because if I did, she would take it the wrong way and I feel like I would get in trouble even though I am not guilty of doing anything wrong.

I think people just want you the more they realize they can’t have you, and the only one that can have me is Angela, so it’s too bad for them.

I am so excited for her to come back to me.  I love her so much it’s disgusting.